She part. 2

wondering in my vomit
if there is not any other
idea, something worthy
better than love.

im here you know,
im here, waiting to spur
everything out
all this pain
all this joy
all this.

wondering asking wanting

Thoughts+Past

Every time she things about it, she keeps going under
& further. She thought that this time, she would not fall
again, but all those wishes are in vain, she wants a love
to love, she wants a guy to befriend with, she wants a
kiss that she can sustain and she wants a hand that she
can share. [mutually]

She found herself talking, telling her inner part, that this time will be different.
But today she questions herself? Will it be different? Or is it that the more she thinks about it
she may commit the same past mistakes, this is so lame. Even though she wants to fall in love,
is all this sentiment worth it.

She really does not know.
But for the while she will go home
to her town, in ENS.

She

she went walking up the hill,
wandering around while the air just hit her face
while smoking a cigarrette,
she was really annoyed to not be able to understand.
all-written things.

she remembered things of her past
she questioned herself, about it whether
she would be able to accept the past things
to occur again.
She gave a lot of thought to it,
when she came around the corner to go walking
down the hill, her head started to ache.

Autoretratos II